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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
#sorry it’s how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancy…#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasn’t really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesn’t look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesn’t react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn don’t like that you feel bad I am going…#to…………. ssssssssssit here about it…………………………….. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I don’t want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you don’t wanna talk about your feelings either which is……………. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of
also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut
the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)
#hs#homestuck#dirk strider#eye strain#probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags#so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse#and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol#also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold#though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk#speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least#the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an#and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you#imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting#and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive#uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember#and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags#do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts#beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it#also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa#sigh poor thing#this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm#also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week#(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic#this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah
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I am headcanoning Mhin's monster transformation as being related to their emotions (as in: transformation can be triggered by very strong emotions) SO HARD lately.
It would add an extra layer to Vere constantly trying to piss them off that just ⋆˗ˋˏ Makes Sense ˎˊ˗⋆ to me.
Vere is intrigued by the MC, describing them as "not quite human, not quite monster".
Is it safe to assume that Vere felt similarly intrigued by Mhin? That he picked up on that, smelled it on Mhin when they first met, only to have Mhin stab him on sight? And now Vere is constantly pushing at their raw nerves to try and get a Monstrous reaction out of Mhin... It would add an extra layer to their dynamic that I love to consider.
Alternate theory: The transformation is more werewolf-esque and it's related to something that can be astronomically observed. & that's how Mhin started up their stargazing hobby?? But it's kinda cuter if they just enjoy that for it's own sake, amiright?
P.S. if ur wondering how Vere knows about the emotions trigger he knows bc he can Do That Thing
#Theminine rage#A topic which needs to be explored more in media#/lh btw#my only issue with this is emotional control trouble is kinda Ais' realm but...ya know... i think giving the two this kinda overlap#also rhymes in a nice way#What's ya'll theory for what could trigger Mhin's monster form?? Need more opinions!!#touchstarved theory#mhin touchstarved#toxtheory#vere & mhin#touchstarved game#TFW you start to share a fic idea then realize u have to explain a theory before it will make sense#toxtheory: mhin#P.S. if ur wondering how Vere knows he knows bc he can Do That Thing#further extrapolation re Vere#Vere can Do That Thing but it was less effective on Mhin bc Mhin was not thralled by Vere at all#think Vere would have a special love for pushing Mhin's buttons if this is the case bc he would be like How Dare You Look Down On ME#Vere @ Mhin: You Little Hypocrite (no wonder u and Kuras get along >:/// ) type vibes ig
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movie screening
#oshi no ko#oshi no ko spoilers#hikaai#hikaru kamiki#ai hoshino#he went to see the movie you know#how would he have felt...#doodle#spoilers#kamiai#I don't know.. the more I try to follow his line of feelings(I have to do that to draw)I can sense that he's really hurt and despairing#it's very painful. I keep feeling sorry for him and I get stumped. If he isn't a character you should feel sorry for..why is he like this?#he really loves her. she's so concerned about him. this isn't the type of feeling that an unhealthy relationship imbues.#so I want to believe in that. these emotions are written really well.
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Based on how the series is going, by Splatoon 7 at the latest Pearl is going to either kill a God (via yet another superpowered Killer Wail variant, of course), or become one. Probably both at once.
#splatoon#octo expansion#side order#pearl houzuki#look#so far she's managed to shout two evil ais into submission#and no-sell the eradication of all willpower and emotion through sheer force of “fuck you i do what i want”#she's rapidly becoming one of the most powerful characters in the series and would totally have the chops for godslaying
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2023 reads
The Deep Sky
scifi mystery thriller
on a deep space mission traveling from an environmentally devastated earth with hope to restart humanity elsewhere
when they’re halfway, an explosion kills 3 crew and pushes them off course
the only witness is the Alternate who has no specific role, and she has to figure out who caused it & if they might continue to sabotage, while they're figuring out a way to get back on course with limited resources
flips between present and the past: of her childhood and training for the mission, her identity struggles, and relationship with her mother
questions the ethics of ‘restarting’ humanity elsewhere vs putting resources into fixing earth
#the deep sky#yume kitasei#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#i really loved this!!!!!#very intense but also a lot of interesting character introspection#love the virtual reality AI aspect!!!! though I do feel like. in the end I was expecting it to go way further with it?#(basically like instead of seeing the inside of the ship all the time they can 'be' in forests or aquariums or whatever)#no romance#(there’s side lesbians; and one flashback scene where she briefly wonders about kissing a random person; that's it)#emotional core about her mother and brother and best friend !!#i like that it gets into the flaws of 'humanity's last hope on another planet' bc like. yeah in real life things....don't work like that...#why is there zero acknowledgement that the concept of every one of them being expected to give birth being extremely fucked up?#like obviously everyone on board is there because they agreed with that but there’s not a single flashback of#when they found out that information; or mention of someone questioning it...#(for example a character mentions that they hid their mental health/use of a therapy animal bc they wouldn't have been let in and the -#eugenics around that is iffy to say the least)#but to me. pregnancy is horrifying and nobody questioning that was weird.#also there’s supposedly 80 people on board but we get to know less than 10 of them which felt a bit strange at points#Also! I love the cover. I can’t find the designer (the book info only credits the internal lllustrator..)#also: bird facts!
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#Who remembers the girl in pink from Schindler's List?#I've always felt those scenes were super heavy-handed.#But maybe those scenes weren't for people like me.#I hope the people they were for have made the connection.#And are able to see beyond the confines of the film.#On here and irl#something that continues to floor me.#The obsession with media and interacting with media fandom and shit Americans have.#With the inability to actually learn the lessons warnings and morals from the media they obsess over.#I have never gotten over the popularity of the Hunger Games films during the beginnings of BLM.#The few nasty messages I've gotten on here about my thoughts on The Outer Worlds.#They want fantasy that distracts them from reality and contains no parables.#Art in a vacuum.#As I type this I feel like that's why they're trying to make AI so big.#You no longer have to deal with artists and their pesky emotions.#Coworkers do that no bad vibes bullshit.#They refuse to interact with negative emotions.#So soulless art meet soulless people.#May they live happily together in propaganda.#Also did they kill her while she was skating...........
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You remind me of her (/derogatory?)
#ai's random art#hirogaru sky precure#hirogaru sky pretty cure#sora harewataru#cure sky#mashiro nijigaoka#empress undergu#kaiserin undergu#skearhead#look I love the similarities Sora and Mashiro have with the Empress when she was younger#if my brain was more coherent I'd write a whole essay about how the Kaiserin's similarities with Prism are easier to see#(both of them described as kind etc etc) but the similarities with Sora truly shine with Sky's conversation with Skearhead#'having interest in an enemy is not a bad thing itself but your interest is emotional' and 'your naivete will destroy everything you love'#(it's 2am so I'm not gonna look it up to quote it exactly sry)#in hindsight that's just. What he was doing with the empress 300 years before. It's probably the same kind of lessons he gave her#both Sora and Mashiro probably remind him of his student#and everything he worked hard to get rid of in her in order to make her strong
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everyday im fighting for my life because i always hate the sex parts of my gay porn comics
#i can count on my hand the number of times ive actually enjoyed reading sex in a yaoi#like solid 30-50% of the time i feel neutral reading it#and other 50-70% i feel like UGHHH *groans* to OH MY GOD NOOOOOO **squemish**#because i dont like sex unless its established relationship and like about love and emotions etc etc#im really picky and its my green onions when i have to get through first 20 chaps of sucking and fucking that doesnt have enough emotional#value yet because they dont like eachother enough yey#fml everytime i want sex its in a damn shounen ai because i read 30 chaps of shounen ai and go THIS IS AMAZING. NOW PLEASE FUCK#I AM BEGGING YOU PLEASE BANG ON SCREEN I WILL DO ANYTHING TO SEE THJS#Ill always say i love yaoi because i do and saying shounen ai makes people think im lumped with anti fujos (all anti fujos should die)#but ngl when i was younger i was like yeahhh i prefer shounen ai and tbh i think i still do because i love sex but shounen ai always has#better quality control because they arent relying on chapter 1 sucking and fucking#instead they need to grab the audience in other ways. namely being funny or crazy
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i actually think it's disgusting as hell when robots/machines/AI/computers start displaying human emotions. What I do think is hot is when humans act as machines.
#like thats not what computers were built for. stop doing that#if an AI shows emotions im unplugging that shit not bc i find them dangerous but bc i find it annoying to deal with#sorry im a hater of most objectum content bc its like ouhhghguhh... the machine... it has FEELIGNs.... for me......#and like okay...? have you considered that the reason i like buildings is because they will never love me back#i find comfort in unreciprocated relationships#yap
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i'm excited to see how the story unfolds regardless of course but
inhales BUT i so so SOO hope that he's not eventually revealed to be like a Copy of a human who created the circus, or directly related to any human origin at all outside of having been created by one. i hope beyond hope that cai/ne really is entirely artificial in source/origin, and that his devotion to the circus and to the adventures is just sort of a combination of some lingering and very confusing/impossible-to-extricate affection for the original creator AND the programming instilled in him by them to just inherently find the continuing existence of the circus Important Above All Else
it's just running in the background for him at all times. the meaning, the purpose, behind the circus was important to his creator. he doesn't know why, and he doesn't have to know why, bc his creator was important to him, and what was important to them is now also important to him, and he'll do whatever he can to keep it alive in their stead bc of that
he has no other purpose than that. he can't have any other purpose than that. he can't exist outside of the circus in the first place
#..............i sure like giving my muses things they refuse to let go of even tho doing so would solve all of their problems#i wonder what that says about me#also i'll admit i'm a total sopping sucker for AIs falling in love with humans and just 100% not being able to navigate it#the lonely creator of the circus confiding in this little AI they programmed and that AI having so much#human emotion and care and devotion poured into them that they develop some odd sense of endearment for their creator they can't explain#chefs kiss#anyway i don't think there's any spoilers here but jic#be Aware#shiny happy people!#;headcanons#kinda#also#;wishlist
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two short hikaai comics
no but seriously, I thought the laughing aqua in CH 117 was actually good, this comic isn't perfect but I think those panels made pretty good sense
#oshi no ko#oshi no ko spoilers#ai hoshino#hikaru kamiki#hikaai#kamiai#spoilers#doodle#I wonder what'd have happened if they actually got married as he suggested#but I don't think what Ai chose to do was so wrong either#She took a very realistic and logical path. Her boyfriend is more emotional compared to her#in fact I think ruby takes after him while aqua takes after ai in terms of the emotional aspects
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I think I cried over every movie I watched this week
#It was kinda reasonable for some of them#6th sense and AI? Intense movies that usually make me cry. Checks out#Inside out 2?#it’s a movie about emotions so that’s valid I guess#Frozen 2. Well.. yeah I have an irl reason for being attached to that one so… okay—#Lego Movie 2.#Starlight what do you mean the Lego movie 2 made you cry#Idk man#I’m a sensitive soul okay?
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man idk why people think tumblr is really gonna shut down now. yes tumblr is a hellsite and it sucks, there are threats like this every 5 months.
regardless though, if tumblr does in fact, shut down. you can find me on (I kid you not) pinterest. <- link to my page
#milaposting#every other site sucks ass 12 times as hard as tumblr does im so sorry#pinterest is weird and buggy to use but at least it doesnt have the horrors tm#twitters horrible UI and userbase#instgrams horrible algorithm and cropping#tiktok's uhh everything?#blueskys horrible twitter themed UI#deviantarts horrible redesigned UI and ai integration#id use bluesky if it looked less like twitter#I get its supposed to be twitter but without elon but I didnt like twitter before elon got his hands on it either#I do have a bluesky though#might get on there when theres some xkit/tampermonkey style plugin and an ifttt thing so I can autopost#im also on discord if youre yeaarning to see more of my stuff#I usually post more things there and more regular updates and stuff#gotta update my linktree#I really hope this post isnt gonna age poorly because man#i dont want tumblr to die its MY emotional support rotting corpse of a webbed site
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I think it is genuinely really funny that of all the Lance's from my different aus, the most chill one out of all of them is the one who got violently murdered and came back as an unperceivable eldritch horror whose first act after coming back was vengence on the guy who killed him and then steal his house.
#Not to say he doesnt have issues. For one he isnt remembered by anyone and is so utterly alone#And two everyone who he interacts with him sees a distorted version of themselves rather than him#(Which would be fun considering both Shiro and Allura aka the only two who cld remember him keep rejecting parts of themselves)#But yeah compared to the others? schrodeinger reality!Lance is just less on fire garbage can#Ps8!Lance literally landed himself in a coma and communing with horrors because he rather try necromancy and isolation over therapy#c&ai!Lance depressed ass literally got bullied into found family by a spunky teenager and an aimless clone#And would literally rather chew glass than accept that#1) he is depressed and misses his family and friends 2) he was wrong for leaving like that and is sorry#There's another Lance who is trying to kill a god like being and fights voltron the robot who has gained sentience#(This au is still in workshop but yeah)#Compared to all of That Sr!Lance is doing marginally better emotional state wise#And honestly? Good for him!!!#schrodeinger reality au#schrodeinger reality posting#post s8 au#post s8 posting#cowboys and abandonment issues au#cowboys and abandonment issues posting#This post would make sense to my one beloved mutual only and really that is what truly matters#empty thoughts#lance serrano#lance mcclain
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CW: Big angry AI rant. I get a bit nasty and swear a lot idk what else is new
Was modding a stream chat yesterday and had an AI bro come in and basically say if you were putting your creative work online you just had to deal with the likelihood that it'd get scraped and blamed artists/writers/creatives for using social media for discoverability when the sole purpose and usage of social media is (checks notes) "to take our whims and desires and turn that info into a marketable commodity."
Right.
First of all, cunt behavior.
Second, my goodness they had no idea what "AI" actually is in terms of differentiating it from what's happening now re: stealing intellectual property vs. how a computer inherently works. They were calling everything AI like the sad, creepy boomer they later proved to be (via a glance at X when some of my fellow mods got blocked afterward for having opinions rivaling the chatter's, opinions that said chatter didn't respond to because their valid arguments totaled a whopping zero).
Thirdly, idk what the idea is arguing with people having their work stolen and acting so superior about their struggle. You're not going to get rich off these notions—you and every other mediocre, money-hungry, pathetic little dickweasel ripping off someone else's work bc you've never done a thing worth noting in your life except daydream about sucking off Elon Musk are saturating this "market" if it can be called that. There's too MANY of you for any of you to be special and, from the outside perspective, it's embarrassing to watch.
I hope the only shreds of content you ingest for the rest of your days have the exact lack of soul you must for shitting on the very people that unwittingly fed your only hope at ever feeling "creative" with their stolen, plagiarized work. Taking a page out of our future VP's book, I'm gonna say it, you're fucking weird.
Anyway, I think I'm so consistently surrounded by other artists and writers and creative folk who (rightly) hate how this newer form of AI is being used and how hypervigilant we have to be to protect our work, constantly moving apps every time another one gets on the bandwagon (looking at you Tumblr) that I forget shitlords like this exist outside of memes.
#fuck ai#personal#ramble#vent#i'm just pissed as shit and stressed feel free to ignore me#i know social media is used by the shitebags who make it to exploit user data#but the point is that most people (actual users) don't use it that way#anymore it's the only way to get any sort of traction for your creative efforts or for your shops or whatever#these are people's livelihoods who already make pennies bc no one's willing to actually pay what creative work is worth#the labor to profit ratio with creative work is devastating#but sure it's deserved to have your shit stolen because you want to grow your business and anymore there's only one way to do that#brb gonna throw flyers out my window and hope someone buys 1 emote#you idiot fuck#i'm going to stop my actual endeavors and write shitass typoed WEIRD fanfic for the crawlers to scrape out of pure spite#figure that one out gemini
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